the life, the love

I'm 21. I go to CMU. I have a weird love for science that even I don't understand, but I hate the idea of defined rules or truths. Though I know i can't say all truths are relative, but truth in and of it's self doesn't exist it is a perception of what is and no one can understand exactly what is.
Tue May 11

some people will fade to the past…but i never thought it would be you two. so i guess i must bid you adieu. To the days we thought we would never be apart and the days that we never were. How I wish our love didn’t sway. I will love you to the end of days.

More and more i’ve noticed less and less of my so called friends are there when i need them even when i’m there for them all the time almost constantly doing stuff for them. It really upsets me when i try as hard as i can to help them but they can’t even text or call me back.  :/ 

o well i guess you see who is really your friend when your down and out and i guess not everyone is as good of a friend to you as you are to them. maybe i’m just in a bad mood because i’m in sooooo much pain and no one really even cared or believed me except the dr who told me i could whatever sort of pain meds i wanted because i’m clearly in extreme pain.