the life, the love

I'm 21. I go to CMU. I have a weird love for science that even I don't understand, but I hate the idea of defined rules or truths. Though I know i can't say all truths are relative, but truth in and of it's self doesn't exist it is a perception of what is and no one can understand exactly what is.
Mon Mar 11
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bride2be:

LARGE Love Birds We Do Cake Topper Rustic Woodland by braggingbags

for some reason this makes me think of FRIENDS when Febbie talks about the lobsters in the tank and how Rachel is Ross’ lobster. On top of my wedding cake will be two lobsters holding claws. <3

bride2be:

LARGE Love Birds We Do Cake Topper Rustic Woodland by braggingbags

for some reason this makes me think of FRIENDS when Febbie talks about the lobsters in the tank and how Rachel is Ross’ lobster. On top of my wedding cake will be two lobsters holding claws. <3

(via styledandwed)

Mon Jan 24

Lately I’ve been thinking about weddings… considering I was asked by a guy who never really intended to follow through. Anyway I can’t help but think about that white dress and the man of my dreams. Now if I could find that man..or get the one i  can’t have :/

Sun Jul 18

things I’ve learned recently

One of the greatest lessons i’ve leaned in my life has been resilience. The ability to yet take what you have and make your life out of this world anyway. For example yesterday i went tubing with some friends and one of there tubes popped early on in the trip. Instead  of bitching the whole time or being any form of upset he was like it happens and went down the river any way and had a great time. Many people today always get what they want and never have to deal with disappointment. then when they have to deal with any sort of life obstacle they bitch and moan. It’s annoying. 

Another thing I have been thinking about lately, is the reason why some people are in my life and if they are really people i want to be around. I have a lot of great friends but some of them just are not cutting it. Some are just not respectful to any one and are just in life for them selves. I’m a person who is more then willing to do things for others and people like that are mostly my friends to take advantage of that. These people are just not worth my time and I will be happy to have them out of my life!

This post was sort of pessimistic, which i am not usually. So, I’m sorry for that.

Thu Jun 24
Tue May 11

some people will fade to the past…but i never thought it would be you two. so i guess i must bid you adieu. To the days we thought we would never be apart and the days that we never were. How I wish our love didn’t sway. I will love you to the end of days.

More and more i’ve noticed less and less of my so called friends are there when i need them even when i’m there for them all the time almost constantly doing stuff for them. It really upsets me when i try as hard as i can to help them but they can’t even text or call me back.  :/ 

o well i guess you see who is really your friend when your down and out and i guess not everyone is as good of a friend to you as you are to them. maybe i’m just in a bad mood because i’m in sooooo much pain and no one really even cared or believed me except the dr who told me i could whatever sort of pain meds i wanted because i’m clearly in extreme pain.